Simply Kami

lets get crazy

2012-02-13T00:25:00.000-07:00

This weekend was a crazy one. Madi and I wrote down a list of things we were going to do, on this weekend, and we just kept adding. It was more of a "write down the first thing that comes to your mind" kind of thing. Anyway, we achieved most of it! it was really fun. we dressed up in OLD dance costumes that were wayy too small, and scared people with my chucky pillow case. lets face it. we are cooler than you and your friends!

We all need a friend.

2012-02-09T10:35:00.001-07:00

(related to this post.)

I try real hard to always be the person that is there for people, even when they are leaving me, or not being there for me. I do that because I know they will need me one day. {Example: when your best friend gets a boy friend and ditches all her friends. you know when they break up she will thank you for never leaving her side} But in this, {like i said in prior posts} i get walked all over. and I end up the one loosing. I am trying so hard for friendships - that Im not quite sure if they are even still there, but I know one day they will be thankful that I was always here for those two a.m. crying phone calls.

I used to be the person you called at 10 at night, and we had phone calls until 1 in the morning. but I'm not anymore, and Ive lost almost all of my close friends for that. so why dont you give me the time of day anymore, or even acknowledge when we are passing each other down the halls between classes? Ive always got your back, because that is "homie status" but at what point will you have mine too? because, i mean, you did promise after all..

I wanna dance with somebody.

2012-02-05T20:20:00.000-07:00

Im having serious dance withdrawls. And its only been 5 days since I last danced. Since im getting surgery in a week. My parents and i decided just not to do dance in February. and let me tell ya. its been hard. Ive been working out like crazy, and doing zumba or yoga videos. Ive been dancing in my room, but its just not the same. i want to feel sweat drip down my face and have the satisfying feeling of "I couldnt have worked any harder in that last class." Wednesday the 25th of January, was the best day of dance. (well that entire week was, but none the less) I gave all I had and couldnt put in any more effort if I wanted to. And now im just wanting that back. Someone tell me how im supposed to last the next 4-6 months with out my studio, and those marly/wood floors? How am i not supposed to hear my favorite sound of sticky ballet shoes for so long? ive been watching youtube videos for hours each day. its official. im having dance withdrawls. and i dont know how to fix it...

I wish i could go back to ^ now..

cheers darlin'

2012-02-02T21:26:00.000-07:00

How do you keep your feet on the ground when you were born to fly?

Hope you all had a great day :)

Its all about love

2012-01-30T18:29:00.002-07:00

Alright readers.
This is an extremely personal post, with information, that I probably shouldn't share in it. maybe ill end up deleting the post later? who knows. but for now, it must be said.

I have been dealing with depression. mild or severe - I'm not quite sure to be honest, none the less, depression. and I know exactly why as well. Interesting right, considering most of the time people don't, but mine was a certain event. Ive been to therapy, talked to an AMAZING shrink -- but still I was depressed.

You ask why I share this? Well today in ballet, (my second to last day might I add, before my surgery) we didnt have ballet class, we had more or less, therapy. Connie - my teacher told us about how she struggled with loving herself, she was always depressed - her husband would ask why and reassure her that she is the most amazing woman ever, but she just couldnt believe it, simply because she isnt perfect. I am that way. I try so hard - and strive for perfection. when truth is, we all ARE perfect, right now. How? because we are at the PERFECT place, to try to be like, and get close to our father in heaven. My depression (along with Connies - when she was) deals with love of myself, and others. I don't always feel like I deserve the love I get. Sounds silly right? But honestly, sometimes I will get a nice text or something simple like that and I will end up crying because I dont feel I deserve it. I feel I need to give more to other, when in reality - I am constantly trying to give more. I dont love myself. I am so hard on myself, its part of the trying to be perfect, as well as not ever thinking im good enough. I see so many people that are better at being charitable than I, or reading their scriptures, or just all around a good person. I judge myself. Judging creates hatred, hatred leaves no room to love, no love leaves you feeling down, irritable, and depressed. You know how people say "If you dont have confidence Fake it It will eventually become true." You think with how much I work out, the compliments I get on my body - that I would love it, but truth is, I dont, so I fake confidence. Ive faked it for about a year now. When is it going to become true? It becomes true right now. because at this moment, and at the moment Connie was talking to us, I decided to Love myself. because how could anyone else love me, if I dont? And Imagine how upset Father gets when we get frustrated, and dont love ourselves. Eliminate the judging, and we can create love.
John 13:34 “A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another."

(and why not tie this into my new years resolution - take 20 seconds of insane courage and be nice to someone who has judged you)

Ice Princess.

2012-01-25T12:54:00.000-07:00

Remember that movie? ohh its grand.

I went Ice Skating recently. I love it. I pretend im a good ice skater and can do tricks, like jumps, turns and what not. I went with my cousins Tawni, Amy, and Cheney. Afterwards we went to village in and ate some yummy's :)

pretending to be good.

Tawn, Amy and I

tawni being an ice princess.

I was singing "grab somebody sexy, tell 'em HEY"

amy and I dancing

Tawn and amy

Cheney and Amy

being a spaz.

What are your favorite winter activities?

We will love again...Just not each other

2012-01-16T11:23:00.001-07:00

Dear William Fitzsimmons.
I have a MAD love for you..
Your talent is unreal.
it makes me ask one question,

Why are you not more famous?

Well heeyy

2012-01-14T15:02:00.001-07:00

Well the term just ended. Hallelujah. I was about to go insane. I still might. (~~I mean all A's and one Aminus...)~~

A month from yesterday my spine will be straight.
all my friends are going to preference. i kinda sorta really wish i could go.
the Lucky One is a freaking good book. in the mists of reading it. :)
Just spent wayyyyy too many hours learning a new ballet number.. that i WONT even be in.
Foam rollers save my life.
this post is outrageously scatterbrained.
If someone wants to buy me this swimsuit, I will allow it. its even on clearance.
Why am I not in mexico right now?
How To Train Your Dragon is possibly the best movie ever. Glibert (my dragon pillow pet) would agree.
I soooo deeply need to clean out my closet.
Speaking of cleaning - im going to clean my room.

HAPPY SATURDAY!

Tell everyone you love them.

2012-01-11T18:56:00.000-07:00

today was a sad day for my school. A sweet boy took his own life.

RIP Jeremy Peterson.

Help

2012-01-08T22:40:00.000-07:00

How many times do you have to turn the other cheek until its enough?
When can you say " I need to do this for me " with out being selfish?

I try so hard to be nice, and do things for others.

but then im the one getting walked all over--

instead of just helping.

simply because i fear of being mean. or loosing a friend.

but im the only one being the friend sometimes.

So any of you have any thoughts?

{sorry im really emotional right now. we can thank our dear girl friend, Period for that one.}

Be Insane

2012-01-04T21:15:00.001-07:00

It only takes 20 seconds of insane courage.

Recognize that line? its from "We Bought a Zoo."
Today while at dance I was forced to go in a different spot then my usual corner. Nothing really wrong with that. just the right back corner is my safe haven when I'm dancing. no particular reason. Well after we were told to move places I ended up in the front, closer to the center of the room. Oddly enough, I did better. When class was near over, my teacher, Jen said "after you do the combo this time, close your eyes and decide what your goal is for this year, weather it is to be more courageous, to finish movement more, to be more precise. etc." So we did as Jen said. I closed my eyes and first thing that popped into my mind was '40 Days.' after that I thought, I can handle this - which brought up the thought "I just cant get a handle on it" -- another quote from We Bought a Zoo. Then my scatter brain went on to the next good line in the movie - "It Only Takes 20 Seconds Of Insane Courage"-

Lately I have been worried about things, stressed about school, dance, surgery, and making a career for myself, rather than being as spontaneous as I used to be. I still am, but not nearly as much. So dear readers, I found my New Years resolutions. weird that this one actually had meaning. Most of the time they don't. One time I had a new years resolution to put a penny lucky side up every singly day... It only takes 20 seconds of insane courage is going to be my New Years resolution, but not just that, Im going to try and incorporate it into my life, even after this year, weather its doing a backflip off of the trapeze in PPT, creating a blog like this or buying a zoo, it only takes 20 seconds.

So have some insane courage.

Ps, I still want to know your resolutions.

(out of the 60+ readers that I have, someone has to have one.)

The date change. so lets blog about it.

2012-01-01T18:06:00.002-07:00

New years is a little silly, We celebrate because it becomes a new day. We make goals for a year - but most peoples only last a month. Its just another day, but its a big party for what ever reason. --- But im not complaining, I enjoy it!

This year has been full of ups and downs.
January was a roller coaster.I missed one of Oak Canyons basket ball games for the first time.. I was devastated. The whole month I was emotional, I spent a lot of time in a bubble bath and crying myself to sleep watching sad movies. It could be due to the fact I was on my period for 6 weeks. But the times I did go out and play I was with two people - Tiffany Vincent, or Zach Facemyer.

In February, I learned my solo, dedicated to Madison Mecum. I also started failing classes due to a week of absence in school... For the heck of it. I went to Vegas with my dance team and got a terrible flu. I went tanning far too much. Went to Shirners Hospital with my dance team - to show the kids there we care about them (the charity Art With Heart is for.) I kinked my neck, from "whipping" my hair so hard at NUVO convention. And I got Lash Extensions for the first time.

March is where I deeply became best friends with Zach Facemyer. also, I celebrated with the other best friend about her first kiss. I embarrassed myself, trying to be thug at a Flash Halftime. Then had an awesome cupcake fight with tons of people.

Then April is where one of my new years resolutions were checked off. I learned how to play Call Of Duty. I started becoming obsessed with working out in April(gotta get that bikini body ready right) I registered for PG high. and had my studio Year End concert. I painted my room. Found a new love for star gazing. Started going to Rocky Mountain Elementary Park, little did I know I would fall in love with this place and come all the time.

Ohh May, Brooklyn turned 5. TDC team auditions. Zumba-ed my heart out. Experienced the funniest thing -- (that Tiff might not want me to share) with Tiff, Kylee, and Jake while watching Greys Anatomy.

June treated me well. Lagoon day and yearbook day. Of course "start of summer" parties. Went to Riverside with MEK. Started doing packets. Summer fest. Got a surprise Visit from Zach Facemyer, while i was emotionally, mentally, physically exhausted from nationals training, packets, and what not, it made me so happy! Bought gala dresses. Started boot camp. Company showcase. Took off and headed to NY! Went to the SOHO Dash. and got to cross that off my bucket list.

Stayed in NY for the first bit of JULY. Visited statue of liberty, yankees stadium, and coney Island. The studio did great at nationals. I got a Scholarship. I got to play and see the beloved Bree Hafen in NY. Danced with my bestie Elle for the last time. Fought with one of my best friends because I knew he had been lying to me. Came home from NY and saw all my friends again. Checked off the other part of my New Year Resolution-- learn to play Halo. Went to the mid night showing of Harry potter with Mads Lants. Saw Winni-the-Pooh. Obsession with Rocky Mountain park has continued through all these months. I transferred to Timpanogos. I danced with my Grandpa :). I was tricked into believing lies from the "best friend". AGAIN. Remembered Madison. Summer Dance Attack, and my phone was stolen.

August started out with a whole lot of friend fighting for miscommunication. Tim Mcgraw Concert. Bestie Elle got in an accident. and CALIFORNIA. I found out what Love was, and what a broken heart was. had a great ending to summer and birthday. survived my first day of highschool. I did something good for myself, and somewhat let a bestfriend go.. got a blast from the past.
listening to backstreet, n'sync, and new kids.

September wasnt nearly as crazy. I had a whole lot of choreo. Melanie Murphy, my LOVED doctor - left the office i go to.. :( Ashley was an AWESOME helper. I was reminded that I have the BEST sister ever. went to see Grease! the BEST! My "bestfriend" that i got in alot of fights with in August started making the effort to be my friend. I have always given people way too many chances, and it gets the best of me...

In October Went shooting for the first time! Watched Conference with the Roberts! Asked a boy to sadies. A year passed.. I got Answered for sadies. I learned connecting with what you do is the most amazing thing you can do in life. I had a blast a regionals. and I went to Sadies

November kept me busy - ART WITH HEART. Selling heats, preforming our three shows, connecting with my team. I started driving.. had this awesome convo:
"soooo whats the speed limit on this road??" - Kami Erin Reiser
"30" - Amy Borgnini
"25" - Tawni
"okay, what ever though.. youre going 10!" - Borgnini
gotta love having the cousin all here :)

Although I didnt go to Overton, i still had a great Thanksgiving. Got sick(cold) for this first time this winter.

December taught me I wear sweat pants too much, when a 2 year old says "those are Kami pants" about sweat pants.. Had a huge breakdown. Orem High half time. Made santa cookies, cut my hair and christmas eve/christmas. Got awesome news My sister and her husband are expecting their second! went to PPT for the first time, and had a blast.and had a fun day babysitting my buggy. Had an awesome New years eve/new year!

It was a crazy year.
and Im excited for another crazy year.
What are your resolutions? Cause I cant think of any yet...

Maddy and I ready on New Years.

MY Paityn Jean.

2011-12-30T17:44:00.000-07:00

Sometimes this little bug and I have sleep overs, where she puts the palm of her hand on my face and puts all her body weight on my face, just to change positions, to where her feet are in my face.

But then she wakes up happy as can be, and finds a pillow that will "make her bummy pretty" while she eats cereal and takes pictures with me.

"I give you NO kisses ever! HAHAHAHAAHAH" - Paityn

Then we spin in circles, Watch tangled, and play all day! its a good day when this bug likes me.

PPT.

2011-12-29T12:22:00.000-07:00

Cause what else are you going to do on a wednesday night?

when candace grew balls and started her backflip off the trapeze. (it is harder than you think.)

When I grew balls.

well hey thurr


I made a friend and somewhat stalked her. she was really pretty. she thought i was a creep. But i am.

Such a fun night. Thank you Candace!

Santa is coming tonight!

2011-12-24T22:29:00.000-07:00

Yes, today is Christmas eve! That means we made Christmas cookies yesterday :)

Gotta love cookies with the maa!
(you also get an erge to cut your hair!)
Before.

after.(not too much shorter. but what evss.)

And we opened pajamas today!

Maa and I before the Pajama opening. I sure love her!

Merry Christmas everyone!

Your day will be the way the corners of your mouth turn

2011-12-21T23:03:00.000-07:00

Well, Christmas break yeahh! So far I have played with Elle Fillmore, and Maddie Palica. But ive also been shopping with my mom, and played with Ashley lots. (ive wanted to play with Candace but she is in elko...)

Today was an phenomenal day. started with working out. Sit-ups, thighs, arms, calfs, and buns. Its Christmas break. no slacking off. Then I stretched. After that I played with Madi Kimball for a bit, which was really fun! Then I ran some errands with the mother. Then the day really started to pick up when I went out with "the girls" Brooke, Becca, Carly, Maddy, Haley, Hailey, Cristal, Alisa, Kaela, Sarah, and Erica. we watched a bit of Elf then headed off to In and Out burger. yumm(: lots of laughs and jokes and stories told. then I came home and I get amazing texts from one of the girls, one of them said: "I honestly always have looked up to you, and i mean that, You are always willing to help people out with whatever and you do tiny little services that people think wouldnt mean anything but they mean a TON! your always the first to apologize and you never have anything mean to say. I love that about you. thanks for being an example to me!"

then right after i read this and started tearing up, I get a surprise Christmas present from Madi Evans.

Its because today started with a smile.

Merry Christmas

when I was 4 - I swore I'd be an astronaut.

2011-12-15T22:16:00.000-07:00

So Im at that dreaded time of my life where I need to start deciding what i want to do, and what career path I want to take. I have heard people say many different things to help prepare for this decision. but sometimes peoples advice contradicts each other. for example:
Ive been told to set my mind on what I want to become, and what career I want. Then do all I can to take classes and train for that career, and pursue my dreams. Dont give up until I'm there. Fight for it.
also,
Ive been told to set my mind, take classes, train, do my best, try hard, and have a back up plan just incase that one falls through.
well personally, I want to be a professional dancer. I want to start off with Dallas Cowboy Cheerleaders(i know, awesome right?) or entertainment on a cruise ship. Then from there I can get jobs with broad way, music videos, and other casts -- even tour with major competitions and conventions. Then I can do something like choreograph and what not. I want to be like Joey Dowling, Jacki Ford, Allison Holker, Mollee Gray, Dana Wilson, you know, all those AMAZING dancers. and not to be coincided, but I believe I have full potential to get there. So why have a back up plan? why not fight for what you truly want? --- What are your thoughts?

Overwhelmed FML.

2011-12-12T18:04:00.001-07:00

I'm sleep deprived. Exhausted beyond belief. I have 5+ tests this week. and a enormous load of homework to do. I have 2grades I need to get up. and not much time to do it... -- yet all my assignments are in, so how do I get my grade up? I need to do my packets for History, and other classes so I can freaking get ahead. I need to get my schedule changed for next term. I'm getting surgery in two month from tomorrow. I am scared beyond belief. This will either make or break it for me.(most likely make it.. but still..) My studio is doing a halftime on thursday. that we had to respace AGAIN, and we wont have time to set on Orem Highs floor. we went from 10 to 6, in just one section. even more girls are in it.. but thats just the "new kids" section... there is still "backstreet" and "n'sync". I dont know how to tell my mom I need new pointe shoes, considering, I JUST got new ones. my toe keeps splitting, and superglue is doing nothing. my callouses are rubbing off. I have insane shin-splints. it hurts to put any weight what so ever on my legs. dont even try to touch my shins, i will cringe. yeah. its bad. My room is clean, but so compleatly un-organized its driving me insane. My tendionitis in my achillis, arch of my foot, top of my foot, and knee are all back. and this weather is making them hurt like crazy. I have to understudy a dance tomorrow. because the girl who is in it is seriously injured. And last but what set me over the edge, thank you for taking advantage of me again. but as long as we are homies right? homie status.. yeah what ever..

its been rough.
maybe thats why i havent blogged in forever.
and maybe thats why i have had emotional break-downs so often lately.
but its not even that time of the month?
only 4 more days of school.
i can do it.

Hows that for a monday?

The one and only: Firm.

2011-11-30T22:34:00.001-07:00

Today started as a slightly rough day. Woke up with the WORST cold ever. I still have killer cramps that Ive had for 3 days now. and NO medicine is helping. (and i have some good dr. stuff) then, Math class - no one likes it, lets be real. Floral, as funny as that class can be, didnt want to be there. (maybe due to cramps?) int the hall some kid tried to hit on me, but it ended up just being creepy, very nice, but creepy... English - read the most boring book ever. as always. home from school, saw my disastrous room, but these cramps made me not want to clean, instead just mad about it. Dance. thats where my day turned around. Class with Joey, she just got home from her wedding/honeymoon. She taught Jazz. SO good. loved it. then we had an hour break. then tap goodness it was really fun as well. slightly goofy, but I did really well today, which is rare. then i came home, showered, and then its 9:45 before i realized I had homework. finished my homework, checked facebook and saw this lovely message from my teacher:
"I just wanted to tell you that i think you are the sweetest girl ever! I am going to miss your positive energy in class while you are out for a while! I know Kayman is too, we both appreciate you so much! Love you!"

---Im getting my scoliosis surgery in February. I haven't thought too much about it. mostly because I know it would make me sad to know Im missing out on dance. But this email from Kirra made me tear up. It was the sweetest thing. I love the studio I dance at, the girls, the teachers, the parents, everyone, and everything about it is amaszing. we are truely a family.
Thank you Kirra(Firm) for making my day!

Thankgiving

2011-11-27T21:32:00.001-07:00

So, Thanksgiving is one of my favorite holidays. Mainly because of the traditions. My family usually goes to Overton, NV. Its a small little town but has so much memories and family there-- especially during holidays. I love it. This year we werent able to go. So we had to keep the traditions alive by "crossing the 'muddy river'" (my grandma's waterfall) and climbing the red rocks (red steps in the back yard) and the family foot ball game after. It sure wasnt Overton -- but it still was great!

Some of my favorite girls!

Cheesy Potatoes and cold turkey make Thanksgiving.

Birthday boy

Crossing the "muddy river"

Football!

Sweet treat.

2011-11-20T22:14:00.000-07:00

Goodness this is phenomenal.
Gave me chills.

Art With Heart.

2011-11-17T13:10:00.001-07:00

Kids who dance so others can walk. This year was absolutely amazing. each year is great, but for some reason this year was better than the rest (could it be because it was over 11/11/11?) My team had a ton of fun having a sleep over and selling "hearts" together between the three shows. we had alot of training and rehearsing put into this and it sure did pay off. But it was greater than just being on stage for a few seconds. this year it really sunk in the whole aspect of "Kids who dance, so others can walk". we are bennifiting kids at Shriners hospital. and thats what its about. Charity. Im so thankful for my abitlites to help. {gotta add the thankful for thanksgiving.}

we had a cute girl from Shriners come onstage at the last show, that participates in our disablity classes. Tears in all the dancers eyes we listened to her story. It made us all feel so much more blessed for a healthy body to dance with, and share our talent with her that night. I am so happy we were able to have yet another successful show, and spend time with my team. I love my team and studio.

Arabesque for Success!

My girls!

The Jackets

Sadies.

2011-11-13T11:15:00.000-07:00

The Date

The group.

The day date. Rock Climbing

The Dinner. Pizza Factory

The ultamate Handstand contests. Why Note!

Because went to walmart after dinner. (I needed floss) and the boys decided to switch dates and the cardinals took over the carts. and made the yankees push them,

Madi got stuck of course

victory dance

getting killed with silly string!

Silly sting fight.

Madi dear.

Kenna dear,

(those two girls. are my best friends. i adore them.)

Sadies was alot of fun. I enjoyed myself!

Bestie.

2011-11-07T20:03:00.003-07:00

Ive blogged about this kid. Numerous times before. but he is a ~~big~~ HUGE part of my life. We fight like brother and sister. We disagree on a lot of things, and see eye to eye on many things as well. I tell him my every secret. He has seen me at my lowest points in my life. and at the times I cared least about my appearance. He knows all my flaws, but doesn't judge me. He has made me laugh until I cry, --and made me straight up cry. This Kid has given me quite the heartache, and headaches too. We can walk all over each other and be best friends the next day. maybe its not a healthy relationship, but I wouldnt trade it for the world because all in all, I know he will ALWAYS have my back. I can call him in the middle of the night because I had a nightmare, Or I was having a bad day so I simply needed to vent to him, and he would be there to listen. He has helped me wipe my tears after hard days, many times. He will forever be my best friend, weather I like it or not. and I know he will make sure I feel better by the end of the day. I know he sincerely cares for me.

He is my best friend. And forever will be.
Love you Zach. Thanks for listening as I vented about my day today.

And Tori, two years with out you today. but I know your dancing with Angels. <3

NYCDA

2011-10-28T16:12:00.000-06:00

NYCDA was phenomenal this year as always. we did incredible and took almost everything. the convention was so fun and i learned so much. I even did well in tap. It was an amazing opportunity. I seriously look forward to it every year!

Wilting!

New kids on the block!

Jordo and I! love her!

fifth place over all high point teen solo!

second day convention!

first day convention

Connection

2011-10-23T21:27:00.001-06:00

A lot of people think that happiness is the key to life. Well this past weekend I spent dancing my tush away at New York City Dance Alliance regionals in Salt Lake. It was quite an amazing experience. In our hip-hop class we got into a really deep conversation. Dana, our convention teacher said how she once too believed that happiness was the key to life. so if waxing peoples legs gives you an extreme joy that you cannot put into words, go wax legs. Or frozen yogurt. Or dance. or playing the harmonica and etc. until Dana watched the VMA's.
(you have no idea where this is going.)
She watched Adele's performance. We all know how AMAZING, and JAW DROPPING, fabulous Adele is. She is phenomenal. lets be honest. And she performed her gorgeous song Someone Like You. Lets be real. 99% or this world if not !00% of this world will have this type of relationship and connect perfectly. Key word, connect. The reason Adele could make a room of full grown men and women get chills up their spine and make them start to cry is because she could connect with her song. Thats what makes her so powerful. thats what makes her so pheomenal to listen to. she has connections to everything she sings.
Connection is the key to life. Weather you are picking plums, or manufacturing remote controls. Connect to what you do, and you will be amazing.
This weekend at NYCDA I preformed my solo. For those of you who dont know, my solo is about Madison Mecum. Her life story, the connection I had to her, and a dedication to her family. When you walk off stage and there are tears in the eyes of those around you, you know you connected.
So what ever you do, If you connect. you will inspire others. you will make an impact to those around you, and you will be great.

Thank you Dana for the message that created this blog post.

Thank you dance club.

2011-10-16T19:21:00.001-06:00

You have made me a make-up artist, now i have mastered the smokey eye.

regionals. 4 days.

the answer.

2011-10-09T18:49:00.000-06:00

This Ute fan isn't so sure anymore... ;)

Who you'd be today.

2011-10-07T17:04:00.001-06:00

Sunny days seem to hurt the most.
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
I feel you everywhere I go.
I see your smile, I see your face,
I hear you laughin' in the rain.
I still can't believe you're gone.

It ain't fair: you died too young,
Like the story that had just begun,
But death tore the pages all away.
God knows how I miss you,
All the hell that I've been through,
Just knowin' no-one could take your place.
An' sometimes I wonder,
Who'd you be today?

Would you see the world? Would you chase your dreams?
Settle down with a family,
I wonder what would you name your babies?
Some days the sky's so blue,
I feel like I can talk to you,
An' I know it might sound crazy.

It ain't fair: you died too young,
Like the story that had just begun,
But death tore the pages all away.
God knows how I miss you,
All the hell that I've been through,
Just knowin' no-one could take your place.
An' sometimes I wonder,
Who you'd be today?

Today, today, today.
Today, today, today.

Sunny days seem to hurt the most.
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
The only thing that gives me hope,
Is I know I'll see you again some day.

Today I showed Marnie, Paige, and a few others my solo. Madison's presence was with us. Its for those moments that I dance.
I love you Madison. You left way too young. But we will see you again.
---so my love, leave yourself behind. beat inside me. Ill be with you.

The question.

2011-10-04T13:36:00.000-06:00

{Summer had to do with alot of silly string wars... Jeremy had to do with a few with them.. So it was only right to use silly string to ask}

Car ride there! Kiana, Madi, Kenna and I

Had to stop to play in the rain!

too many things wrong with this picture!

loooveee her!

Cartwheels!

6 cans of silly string.. Lets do it!

Madi Dear!

{It would be "Silly" for me not to ask you to SADIES!}

Like silly string on my head.. mmk..

Destroyed his room. Sorry Jer(:

And the answer awaits...(:

Gun powder and lead

2011-09-30T13:39:00.000-06:00

My dad is one of my best friends. He inspires me daily. He is one of the wises men I know. He teaches me so much, and I love having deep conversations with him. He is phenomenal.

He and I had a little daddy daughter date yesterday and he checked me out of school for forth period so we could go shooting and grab some food. It was so much fun! I had a blast. I sure love him!

Its that havesting season

2011-09-28T15:40:00.000-06:00

When the leaves change colors.
We have nap time in floral class.
My neighbor brings the pumpkins out too sell
The temperature is just right.
Jamba juice sells pumpkin smash(deeeslliiisssh.)
and I get to spend fourth period (which i dont have) with this lovely girl.

It was a good day.

and now to study for earth systems.

{insert title here}

2011-09-25T09:56:00.000-06:00

Cousin night is simply the best.
while we make crafts (and i might fall asleep...)

and watch bridesmaids

And you finally hang these up in your room.

Hope you all had a great weekend.

there. now candace has a post from me.

Im just simply busy.

2011-09-18T10:37:00.000-06:00

Im just simply so busy.

blogging isnt my first priority at this moment.

But once my stacks of homework goes down.

my feet don't look like this,

I dont have to re-sew these every day,

I will post something extravagant... until than. bare with me.

Ive got chills. And they're multiplyin.

2011-09-11T20:43:00.000-06:00

Over Labor day, Mother, Father and I went and saw Grease.

My life was complete.

and my chills

kept mulitplyin.

You know you picked a good friend when...

2011-09-09T23:01:00.000-06:00

She rubs "sweat stopper" all over your back and stomach at the random hours of the night when you look like a hot mess wearing a neon green "THE DANCE CLUB <3'S ME!" shirt.

I love you Ashley.

Those good kind of days

2011-09-08T21:48:00.001-06:00

Its days like this. When everything go right. Days that I cant wipe this smile off my face. Days that are just so perfect. Days that should be everyday.
It all started when I woke up and put on a brand new pair of Victoria's Secret Yoga Panties. Then...
The best friend that has been mentioned a lot lately as "J" talked to me today in first period, as if nothing ever happened. as we once did. as if we always have.
Then I got a surprise delivery of these beauties in english..

Then I went and practiced my solo.. Loveeee (:
And I danced on new pointe shoes!!
and I put on a new pair of sock to end the day in rehearsal with.

Today was phenomenal.

Sister dear.

2011-09-06T21:18:00.001-06:00

I have the best sister ever. I got the BEST text today during B2.
"You're fifteen and you're about to bloom just like a rose
You're wishing that you had designer jeans
Like the ones you see in magazines
Now I know you'd give anything just to fit in
But your worth ain't on a price tag, it comes from within and
Hey there little homecoming queen in that back seat
I'll bet his brown eyes are promising you everything
And I know you want to be just like your friends
But he'll still love you if you don't give in
But if those girls were being honest that have been where you're at
I bet they'd tell you they wish they had their innocence back and
he left you for a girl that could be your twin
If you were 28 again
Let him go, let him fly
Keep your head up, get on with your life and, Don't you know you're beautiful - Kellie Pickler"

Now that would make your day.

Not to mention, new pointe shoes.
{if only I didnt get that killer headache...}

Great day.
I love you Sister dear!

ps. tomorrow im going to continue that blog chain I never finished. since I can now...

When you say nothing at all.

2011-09-06T13:03:00.000-06:00

First off, who in the heck got me started with this song lyric as blog title ish pish nonsense? anyway.

I just mayyyy be the lamest blogger in the world....

(when I say nothing at all.)

SO, visit candace's blog, because she has the same post that I was going to post, UNTIL she did.

http://wild-thinkings.blogspot.com/2011/09/first-song.html

Dont forget to comment, show a new blogger some love(:

or say it best. by saying nothing at all....

k im done.

Is it better to tell and hurt, or lie to save the pain? I guess the answer is dont do it in the first place.

2011-09-04T17:56:00.000-06:00

Longest title ever? most definatly.

but really, I need some help.

Is it better to smile, act like nothing is wrong, while a person somewhat walks all over you. But you pretend its nothing.

or do you stand up and confront that person, which may demolish the friend ship that may come back, since they dont have a right to straight up lie to you, then ask for favors of doing their homework and etc.

im just a lost teen right now. I need advice. (as always)

Everything happens for a reason.

2011-09-03T11:05:00.000-06:00

Cause Candace wrote it better than I could.

http://wild-thinkings.blogspot.com/2011/09/true-believer.html

And I'm just too lazy.

Lets find somewhere beautiful; and get lost.

2011-08-29T21:28:00.000-06:00

Because dancing in the rain. With my "summer" dress is a must {ohh i love that dress!}

And painting at 1 am is wonderful.

Happy Monday thoughts!

Partially anonymous... again. Boy = J

2011-08-28T22:16:00.001-06:00

Dear {Boy}
Oh gosh, where do I begin? New years of 2009-2010. You were upset with me, yet you held me tight and we had our first kiss. I knew I loved you that very moment. Saturday September 18 2010, We had a campfire at Kylee's house. I tried to get a picture of you, in your stubbornness you pulled me down so I was sitting on your lap, you held my waist and kissed my cheek. That moment I was reminded how much I loved you. Then drama came around and you were there every second. Maddie Mecum and my great uncle died. You always held me when I needed it most with out knowing. You knew my every need and make it happen. remember that January night at Maddy Lant's house. you slapped my butt so hard it bruised, then you slow danced with me when the night was ending? that night is one of my favorite memories. I could go on forever but there is no point, Because in all those memories it just establishes that I love you, but on May 7th, 2011, the only thing that was more impossible from leaving, was staying.
Now I dont regret any second spent with you. I went through some rough times and acted like a physco-path, yet you stayed by my side, I dont know how you did it, but your amazing for it. Now if you do anything more for me, let it be this, please dont get angry with this note, just try to understand my side.
'J' you hurt me. I believe the only person Ive cried more about is Madison Mecum, but she died. So now, I stand under the weight of you words, paralyzed by what you said and how it hurt. But everything you said is the truth, I was too scared to admit them to myself. And sometimes you forgive people simply because you want them in your life. I forgive you for everything. You taught me so much, so infact, thank you.
I may just be an over hormonal and emotional teenage girl, but on 7-25-11, when we had our "bonus night" I really thought it would become something, but I'm convinced all it was t you was simply a bonus night. You knew i gave you my whole heart a while back, and truth is I havent gotten in back. So you knew I'd be willing. After that night I was probably at the lowest point in my life yet. My Best Friend went to the hospital and my other supposedly best friend was upset with me that people found out. Since 7-25 I havent felt close to you. at all. I feel like we are hardly acquaintances. I asked you to name my dragon pillow pet on my birthday since you promised you would when I got one a few months earlier, as silly as it sounds you will never know how bad it hurt me that you didnt care at all. 'J' I cried a little about it. I felt like my best friend didnt care about me.
So this is me returning what I have that holds the most memories of you, because until YOUR ready to have me be YOUR best friend, these belong to you. Ive tried. But I took a leap into the ocean and you were no where to be found to save me.
I dont write this to make you mad or feel guilty, I write this to give you time. and I promise, when your ready, Ill be here waiting.
"I watched you sleepin' quitely in my bed, you dont know this now but there's some things that need to be said. Its all that I can hear. Its more than I can bare.
What If i fall, and hurt myself. Would you know how to fix me? what if i went and lost myself. Would you know where to find me? If i forgot, who I am, please remind me. 'Cause without you things go hazy."
I love you. and Always will.

Today, I gave back 3 scrapbook pages that were all about him, and sweats and a hoodie i had of his. Dear Highschool. Im ready to be drama free (: Never been so relieved!

Boy Bands

2011-08-27T23:07:00.000-06:00

Thank you Dana Wilson for a fabulous weekend.

It consisted of numerous hours of choreography.

ohh how i love boy bands.

and for all you J-bieb fans, he got NOTHING on some good ol' N'sync, Backstreet boys, and New kids on the block.

I dare you to you tube and reminisce on their amazing-ness. its worth it.

balloons and cake.

2011-08-24T18:21:00.000-06:00

My birthday this year was simply wonderful. Thanks to all that made it that way. and when you can hardly walk in your room because of so many balloons you know its been a good day. Thank you all. I love you! {officially. 15}

California Lovee.

2011-08-17T16:53:00.000-06:00

After that dramatic post. lets talk about something happy.

First im going to say, the night before I left to California, I went to the Tim McGraw concert. Well it was simply fabulous.

Then I woke up early early and went to California. A week of nothing but laying out on the beach? yes please. It was soooo great to get a way and leave drama and life behind. Just being with my family boogie boarding and tanning. It was much needed and I had a great time.

When your fifteen and somebody tells you they love you.... Your going to believe them.

2011-08-17T00:01:00.002-06:00

Let me apologize that the first of this post, I am not a Taylor Swift fan, and I cant believe I titled this post one of her songs. But it was necessary.

So I'm in that awkward stage. The teenage growing up phase. You know.. And I'm learning new things every day. One thing I have seriously learned is, stay away from boys. You dont need a boyfriend. I promise.

This post is titled "When your fifteen and somebody tells you they love you.... Your going to believe them" because I am currently dealing with a broken heart. In this post when I say the term love use it lightly, Im aware I am wayy to young to know what love is..

So there is this boy right? I will just name him J again like I did in a prior post. But this boy, he is my best friend. He sure knows how to sweet talk, and ohh boy can he make me feel special. Ohh and this boy he listens to all of my problems too, he even gives good advice, and deals with my constant imperfection findings. He is a good guy. This boy and I had a boyfriend-girlfriend relationship for a long time. We even kissed(gasp!). He taught me a lot about my self, and he could always make me happy. Well all good things end right? We broke up. although we broke up we were on good terms. We were still best friends and talked all the time. I was okay with this just best friend relationship. I thought I was over him. Then "J" started liking someone else (refer to this post) Well I quickly learned I was not over him. But I put on a brave face, and I sure acted like I was. I would get asked all the time "What do you think of J and {girl}?" or "Does J and {girl} bother you?" I would lie and say "ohh they are so good for each other. they really bring out the good in the other one. I am happy for them." Well hi, Im a bloody liar. I would go home and cry and cry in my bed time prayers. I would take a bubble bath and sob. I would listen to sad songs or watch sad movies so I knew this happened to others. So, I have this thing about asking permission to make personal posts. So I asked J if I could make an anonymous post, J said yes, and read it.Then J texted me and asked to talk. And there we go with the sweet talk and the making me feel good that I once fell for before. I was asked to give one more chance. I personally believe in forgiving and giving many chances, because everyone makes mistakes. This gets the best of me, often. I gave J another chance. we had a day fling and decided we didn't want to go though it again. Now I sit here heart broken yet again. I got to the point a few times where I wanted to give him everything I owned of his or with him apart of it. And a little note saying "I still want to hold you, and kiss you for hours, but re count all the countless tears I lost for you. And I promise starting now, I wont ever feel the same. And starting now. I wont remember your name." But I know that wouldn't be right. No matter what, J is my best friend, and I couldn't cope with out J. But now, I'm not heart broken that I'm not with J, but I'm heart broken because I was so vulnerable to believe we could work out again. Or so vulnerable to believe he really wanted to be with me again. But, when your fifteen and somebody tells you they love you, your going to believe them.
and thats the biggest mistake.
thats why tonight, ive cried for the last time.

Dear J: I don't love you... But I always will..

{and yes I realize I'm way too young for this.. all of it. but you've gotta grow up at some point. I just chose to, way too early.}

Elle update:

2011-08-08T21:39:00.000-06:00

Soo, here is the story..

{graphic pictures ahead}

Saturday night my dear dear friend Elle was rushed to the E.R. After gettitng in a golf cart accident and getting dragged down the hill with the golf cart. Her leg was terribly torn up. She got surgery sunday morning at 2:30 because she had torn tendons that needed to be sewn back up. she was allowed to go home shortly after the surgery. her current state is, stitches in her right knee, probably needing the same surgery on her ankle once she gets enough skin to preform. Her right foot is the worst of the entire injury and her foot needs skin graft. good Ghandi.. This girl is in need of prayers and her sister, who was in the same accident. her sister has a beat up road rashed hand and is very sore from the accident. pray for these girls and their families please. XOXO

P.s. im not sure how much i'll blog in the next week. Fam and I are in California.

prayers to a dear friend Elle.

2011-08-07T23:09:00.000-06:00

one of my dear friends elle was in a terrible accident. she was in the hospital with major leg damage.. more details and pictures will be posted when i get hotel internet.. until then please keep elle in your prayers.

Truth is, Im only good at being young...

2011-08-04T00:53:00.001-06:00

So, high school is coming up. Scary thought right? Yeah. Im terrified. Not so much for the school its self but for this reason..
I know I'll make new friends in high school, everyone does. but going into high school would be nice to have friends... I have friends. but noone I'm really really close too. I can play with people, in a group.. not one on one because im not close enough to them. and even when I do play with them, its a little awkward. I chose this for myself to not have a real best friend, because I thought it would be easier, but truthfully, its just as hard. My one best friend is of the male kind. And sometimes has boys nights, understandable. But that leaves me awkward with no friends.. nothing against him, since ya know, he is allowed to have other friends, im all for that, Im just the awkward one.. its fine. And truth be told, I've been a little depressed lately from a "lack of friend" feeling. which I so know isnt true, so why am I upset about it....?

Ohh the joys of being a teen.... advice please?

Brooklyn Ryann

2011-08-01T10:13:00.001-06:00

I have two nieces. Paityn - which I've posted about a few times, and Brooklyn. Ive never really talked about Brooklyn because I dont actually know her. Its a sad circumstance and we aren't able to see her. She is beautiful. My sister doesnt really know this, because I choose not to show my feelings with our family about Brooklyn because of two reasons A: I know its hard on Kimber and Derek to not be able to see her, and B: I dont like kids so my family would think im crazy! But, I love this little girl so much. I've never met her, and I know just about nothing about her. But I have seen pictures and I imagine silly little things she could have said or a sassy attitude she may have. I imagine her life, and wish so badly I knew her. Not just do I wish I knew her, I wish I could see her grow up, and be apart of her childhood. One day she will meet us and I hope she understands its not how we wanted it to be, we all really wanted to know her, but we just couldnt. Im sure she is such a riot and so fun to have around. I love this little lady, and miss her so much. One day I will actually meet her...

If they dont dance, their no friends of mine!

2011-07-31T20:04:00.000-06:00

National dance day yesterday. I spent my entire day dancing so i couldnt blog.
Thursday, Friday and Saturday I was at a dance convention, called Dance Attack. I had some of the most phenomenal teachers and the best time there. Liz Imperio, Dana Wilson, Martha Nichols, Suzi Taylor and of course Joey Dowling! Had the best time there. So sore, but its alright, right?
Liz Imperio is phenomenal, teacher and motivator.
a few thoughts from Liz:
"Why do we dance? Whats our drive? we sacrafice so much, what do we gain? We dont go to parties or friend outings because of ballet class, we dont go on family vacations because of choreography. we miss our cousins wedding because of a show, we dont go shopping with our mothers because of rehearsal, we miss school for costume sizing, we eat salad with no dressing so we fit into that costume made two years ago, we are scared to get pedicures because they are going to try and remove our well worked for callouses, we cant wear open toe shoes on our date because we are afraid they'll dump us because of our un-sightly feet. we dont stay out late cause we have to be up and ready at 7 am with our hair and make up done ready for dress rehearsal. We sacrafice our lives, because we know that the one place we are normal, the one place we are accepted, the one place we know as home, where we are comfortable. at our studios. we spend too much time with these girls, but in the end, we know who to run to when life is hard on us. not just who to run to, but where to run to. We dont dance because we want to, we dance because we have to, we have no other choice."
Soooo true. I can not express how many times i will spend friday night at home because i know i need sleep for saturday morning pointe class.
Dance is finding two minutes in between classes to take a power nap.
Having calloused, bruised, blistered, and torn apart feet, and somehow being proud of them.
Having to survive off of 5 hour energy drinks because that's all the energy you have.
Dance is spending hours in rehearsal getting screamed at just for the two minutes and thirty seconds on stage with all eyes on you.

I hope you all had an AMAZING National Dance Day... I sure did--- expecially when i got my two minute nap(:

My heart finds peace tonight and your soul finds comfort there

2011-07-24T19:36:00.000-06:00

Incase you were wondering. All my post titles are coming from William Fitzsimmons songs. Just saying, he is the best..

Madison Mecum passed away October 7th. This 24 holiday Marnie(Madison's older sister) wanted to do fireworks for her. So we did.

Madison's Firework

Candace Marnie and I

Love Marn(:

At Madisons Grave


Watching the Firework.

You could feel the love surrounding us. Love you forever Maddie.

Because blogs are for venting.

2011-07-23T20:40:00.000-06:00

I know I have done previous posts about my brothers. And I am not trying to paint a terrible picture of my brothers in your head, cause they are terrible all the time. But blogs are for venting.
Story goes like this:
My brother Zach is doing my other brothers Rhett's laundry and he is going to clean Rhett's room, because Rhett will pay Zach. Cool right? at least Rhett's room is getting cleaned somehow. Well Zach puts Rhett's dirty clothes in the room RIGHT outside the laundry room. Does that make sense to any one? then when the clothes were clean, instead of folding them or something neat like that he threw them on the couch next to the dirty clothes in our main hang out room in our house. Well, we already had 3 guests, and two more coming over. So I politely asked Zach to move the clothes so people had a place to sit, and while he were at it, put the dirty clothes in the laundry room where they belong. Let me add I said this politely and calmly. Zachs response went like this:
"Im doing laundry. Shut up"
kami: "I can clearly see that, but more people are coming and need a place to sit."
Zach: "they can sit on the floor"
Kami: "Zach thats rude just move it please"
Zach: "they'll get dirty if i take them down to Rhett's room, just go up to your room noone wants you here, and i dont want you bitching infront of my friends. Leave."
I stayed calm through this whole thing.. How was i bitching at all? he was being rude and using a rude tone. Grow up.
So I folded the clothes and moved them. Then i put the dirty clothes in the laundry room. and he is now mad at me. Really? Please tell me someone else has as immature 18 year old brothers as I. cause its really uncool that some sort of fight like this happens at least once a day.(not to meantion besides today I do his laundry and I do his dishes and I make him food. so explain to me why I am always bitching?)
hope I havent completely distorted your views on my family.

She's country. From her cowboy boots, to her home town roots.

2011-07-22T17:59:00.001-06:00

Oh goodness, why do I live here! I should be out in some hick town where gorgeous cowboys plays songs to me and ride horses in cowboy hats.
New male country singers coming out that im discovering is making my life almost impossible to move forward here in utah!
he is only like 19.
he has the lyrics from my diary. and a face from my dreams!(:
he is just phenomenal.

i swear i will find myself a country boy one day

Memory only serves to remind of all the regrets you forgave.

2011-07-21T14:10:00.002-06:00

I have this friend. Left to be un-named. So instead we will use the letter "J" for them.. Sound good? cool.
So, I have this friend. not just a friend. a BEST friend. Ive been this close to very few people. I choose to be open and honest with everyone, and I'll become friends with everyone. but I choose not to share all my self, with hardly anyone. It takes a lot to become this close to me. Some people think they are, but they are mistaken.(but that's alright, they can think what they want to make themselves happy!) Anyway, this friend, I shared every secret with. Pretty sure they knew me better than myself. I would tell them things I probably shouldn't have, but I didn't care. I trusted them. And that's okay, cause they are completely trustworthy.
For a long time I tried to impress J, I would wake up earlier to look prettier everyday. Stay up later to talk to J. Make an effort to be better friends and more "chill"" to hang out with. I put a lot of thought into everything I did. but not for me, for J. This lasted for a long time. I eventually became depressed because I was always trying to impress someone other than myself, therefore I was never good enough. I spent a lot of weekends crying to myself for no reason in a bubble bath. But when I wasn't in the bubble bath I was with J. I know, I was an idiot.
Well J kinda hurt me. We had an awkward time to say the least, where one would text the other and the receiver would debate texting back. We would want to hang out, but when we did it was weird. something wasn't right. it wasn't the same.
I started not really caring. I decided, I'm not going to hide anything, like I once did a while ago. I'd let J see me with no make up on, 3X too big of sweats on and my hair SLICKED back into a tight ballet bun. Screw it. Not like I ever care what I looked like. Everything seemed right again! no more awkward-ness. I was finally happy I wasnt trying to force anything.
Then summer. Where everyone is prettier and tanner.
Awkward came again.
I wanted to know what was causing these odd awkward moments since J and I are so close, nothing should be awkward.
I started connecting dots. J liked someone. I started being replaced in a sense. I wasnt used to this, it hasnt ever happened before. I didnt like this feeling. J wanted to be with their "lover" and i wanted to be with J, but that didnt always work cause we were both fighting for J's attention. Not to mention i dont think J's "lover" likes when im there because of how close we are.
Well I tried to inform J i knew multiple times. Each time i would get an answer like "no its not true, i dont like them. just cause we flirt doesnt mean anything" Well, hi, im not an idiot, I knew something was going on, but everyone kept lying.
I finally grew a pair and confronted J i KNEW! i told J that i knew, i wasnt an idiot, it was obvious. J gave me a sweet explanation saying that they just didnt want to hurt me, they were trying to help me. blah blah blah. But did it ever occur to J that i would find out? and it would hurt me even more knowing they didnt have the decency to tell me the truth? Neglecting the fact that i was THEIR best friend too and they were going to keep a secret from me..
That is how J hurt me. We talked it through. I've forgiven J. I know I hurt J, as much as J hurt me. Ive apologized, because I do love J. J truly is one of my BEST friends. I still tell J secrets all the time. I still try so hard for J. but somethings take longer to forgive then others. I guess this is my way of forgiving myself for caring so much. Forgiving myself for hurting J. "fears are stupid, So are regrets." - Marilyn Monroe.

Have any of you had a similar experience.? how did you deal with it? are you still friends?

TMI to the max.

2011-07-17T18:04:00.000-06:00

So here goes a post with much more detail and information that i should give, to anyone besides my mother, sister, or doctor. But I'm fed up, and I'm going to post.

Hello mother nature. You welcomed my world with womanhood not too long ago. I wasn't too please, but I knew it was going to happen at some point, so what ever. For a long time you were really nice, coming about every 3-4 months for about 2-4 days. I decided you weren't as mean as everyone made you seem. But karma decided this wasnt fair for me, so she came by with an insane 6 week STRAIGHT period until the second week of january when my mother decided this wasn't alright so she took me to the doctors. We did many tests and we, my doctor and I, decided I should be put on birth control just for the fact of needed to stop this. Well hey, fine by me as long as you make my period stop.
Sure enough it did. For a while. two weeks before I left for New York, I had my period. it stopped after 5 days. Then two days later my mother had her "time of the month" and it forced me to start again, and im still taking my birth control, and STILL on my period. yeah that is making this my FIFTH week on my period. Im going into my gynecologist again, and I will probably just change my birth control... Again, like i have the past 3 times.
So, has anything like this happened to any of you? if so, how did you cure it..? someone has to have the answers. And sorry that may have been scarring for many of you.

Rat on a scooter.

2011-07-17T00:18:00.000-06:00

Im sure many of you have played the ipod/iphone game "rat on a scooter" truth be told, i havent. but it was a good title for this post...

this story goes like this:
Em, Kels, Kylee, and I all at em's house. We wanted to do something spontaneous. so we took Emily's little sister's bikes and rode down to walmart. Emily's dog followed. We got to walmart, walked around for a while (with her dog) and then realized we cant ride our bikes home (insane hills) and we have no ride. Cool. so we were stranded there for a while, we played cards on the floor and random nonsense like that. eventually we got a ride home. it was a crazy day.


forgot to meantion sprinkler running? oh its a must!

I love summer. I love my friends. I love life.

So lets get on a plane

2011-07-13T10:59:00.001-06:00

I think we need to get on a plane and head back out to New York. In the first 24 hours that i was home i got 7 mosqito bites.. uncool. The last days in new york were great. My gala went phenomenal, and our senior number won Critics Choice. I have never had more fun at nationals in my life. I never wanted to leave. If i could pause time, i would at that particular nationals. it was truly phenomenal.

Bree and I at the Gala

Some of my girls!


Elle and I. I cannot express how much im going to miss this girl next year. She is truly my best friend and i love her to death.

So New York was great. I cant wait to return! but now that Im home, I thought I should maybe start playing with people since I havent had time to yet. I love these girls, they make me laugh lots. ADWP

Visiting Mitch? yes please!

Icee.

Maa girlies!

Nationals almost over

2011-07-06T20:10:00.001-06:00

Sorry I haven't blogged about each day for the past few days. But when you wake up at 6 to be ready at 7 and dance at 8 then don't get home from dance until 12, then have to still take off your make up, take out your rediculously complicated hair, shower, get your bags ready for tomorrow, and all the other necessities before bed therefore not getting to bed until about 12:45 or 1, then knowing you have to wake up at 6 the next day. trust me, you wouldn't blog either. on sunday we went to one of my uncles friends barbeques.

The food was amazing.(:

after the barbeque, my favorite person got in to New York. So my mother and I went to see and play with Bree for a little while. I sure missed her. Not to mention LOVEEEE her! I forgot to take pictures, but I will take pictures at the gala tomorrow night with her. We just chatted for a while before I had to get back to my uncles place to sleep before convention.
Convention started monday. I cannot express enough how much a I loved it. So phenomenal. All of it. every class was the best it could ever have gotten. Great teachers, great choreography, great dancers in the room. Joey Dowling told me I did great, she was really proud of me this year. Gahh. phenomenal way to start nationals! I quickly went to get ready for competition. WHICH WE ROCKED! Like I've said before, all the blood sweat and tears we put into hours after endless hours at the studio rehearsing, pay off the first second the tree lights go on from the side of the stage and we take our first step to welcome our crowd. I love my studio, my team, company. I love dance. 100% of the people 100% of the time. One team, one dream.(ps, i did dance so long, that i didnt get any 4th of july fireworks. but its alright, i wouldnt have wanted it any other way!)
After an amazing day and night of dance, I FINALLY got to bed. then before i knew it, i was crying at 6 in the morning because i didnt want to wake up. but sure enough i did, and i got ready and we headed off to the convention center. When we got there my mom could feel my fatigue and suggested that we got an energy drink(good mother huh?!(; ) sure enough we did. usually i choose Red Bulls if i choose to drink an energy drink. Where we went only had 5 hour energys. Holy swearwords! IT WAS REPULSIVE! each gulp I had to restrain from it coming back up. Despite it's nasty-ness, it woke me up. Off to another fabulous day of convention i went. our second class of the day was scholarship auditions. Scary right? except, my horoscope that morning said "You deserve everything your about to get Leo, you've worked hard, now you get the reward. congrats." From that moment I decided, I would get a scholarship. When it was time for auditions I gave my all and got my number, 155, to go back on stage to do the combo one more time. following that our teacher, Andy Pellick told us who had gotten the scholarship. many numbers were called. my number, 155, was called! I was thrilled and had a fabulous rest of the convention day because of it. After convention we had competition again, we all knew how great we would have to do, sure enough, we followed through. Another phenomenal competition, followed by teen company bawling hysterically. The story of our last number (in this hole) is that our team is fighting for each other, we would do anything to be with each other, we love each other. Once we came off the stage we realized, that was our last time performing with two of our girls, Lauren, and my absolute, all time best friend, Elle. For different reasons, they will not be dancing with us next year. I was sobbing with the thought of not seeing Elle every single day at dance. Im still astonished. once we gathered ourselves, and it was time for awards we found out whose numbers got in the gala. in every age category, a number from our studio got in! go TDC!
that brings us to today, another energy drink was needed in the morning, but once again, gave me energy and make my classes phenomenal! This has been the best nationals I've been to yet, and its all over tomorrow. Im not ready for that. After Convention, I didnt have competition due to the Junior gala. So my mom and I went to Canal Street, (my brother was sadly sick) and we shopped, bargained, and spent alot. But we got a ton of "stuff" at great prices! Now im sitting here telling you all of this about ready for bed. Many pictures will be taken tomorrow at the gala, as well as we find out whose studio won NYCDA nationals 2011. Cross your fingers and say your prayers for Dance Club.
Hope this wasn't too boring to read(; its bed time now, and tomorrow will be my last day of convention as well as last day of NYCDA nationals. Im so greatful for this opportunity and my amazing training, technique, studio, directors, teachers, team, and family for supporting and helping me get here. I love my life! and I obviously LOVE dance! Goodnight fools!

Coney Island

2011-07-02T20:07:00.000-06:00

On our list for today we went to Coney Island. Oh my heck. I was in heaven. Funnest roller coaster ever. Not to mention the teacups from the movie Uptown Girls. On the horse ride my mom told me to throw my arm in the air as if I was laso-ing(yeahh... hope you caught that.) I did. After I was telling her I was tenitive to do so incase the roller coaster shot off or not, no worries. As I was saying that we shot off. and I slightly peed! Goodness, I loved coney island!

Right before i peed.

Uptown Girls tea cups(:

The Gang. Zach, Rich, Mom and I.

After Coney island my uncle Rich toured us around a cute walk bridge by his appartment. By the time we were done it was about time for dinner so we got his boyfriend and headed off to a nice french restuarant. it was mighty delish!! Great week in NY. Great weekend so far. Great saturday. Lovin life!

Part of Rich cut off :(, me, Rich, Mom, and Zach

Something about them tight pants and pin stripes.

2011-07-01T21:20:00.000-06:00

Today was full of sight seeing. I felt like a true tourest today. My legs will never jiggle ever again im pretty sure. Goodness A LOT of walking today. But I cant complain. It was a fantastic day after all. We started the day with the Statue Of Liberty. We didnt go inside because the next available time for that is in October. HA! whatever. So we just toured around that island and Ellis Island. It was very fascinating. We did listen to a tour ranger about the Statue Of Liberty. She was really interesting to listen to. I had great fun there.

Boat to the Islands.

After that we went over to Bronx to the Yankee's stadium. Something about them tight pants and pin strips make me go crazy!

We did a ton more stuff, but it was mostly just walk around famous places such as Centeral Park, Grand Centeral Station and etc. But overall, as tiring as it was, it was a great day!

We love us the subway...(:

Dash. Day two(:

2011-06-30T20:57:00.000-06:00

New York is fantastic, I'm loving it! Today consisted of LOTS more shopping! We went to Century 21 which is PHENOMENAL! ohh my goodness I was in heaven. Then we went over to canal street and I got the CUTEST white oversized purse with some colored flower details (since that probably in your head looks a lot different then what I'm looking at, I will post pictures later.)

So the title of this post, Dash is because I went to the Dash NY store. If your like me and watch the E! channel, and your favorite show on E! is Keeping Up With The Kardashians, Kourtney and Khloe Take Miami, or Kourtney and Kim Take New York, then you are well educated on the sisters Dash store. If not, the Kardashian sisters own a store called Dash in Calabasa's California(the original) In Miami (the second) and just recently built one in New York. Well it was on my bucket list to enter one of these Dash stores. Just so I could say I did it. When we went shopping today, I completed this task on my bucket list. Let me add, there was a LINE to get in, with guards who limit the amount of people in the store. As I browsed I came to find that the only thing I could afford there was a disposable plastic water bottle for $10. Even in the sale section, the cheapest thing was $200 or so. None the less. I have been to Dash boutique!

We ended the night by going up to my uncle's gorgeous sky view. His view is absolutely amazing.feel free to imagine how beautiful it is in person... aahhh. I love this place.

New York Arrival

2011-06-29T19:21:00.001-06:00

Heyoo! I've made it here to New York! And I can almost guarantee that every person at the airport, in both Salt Lake and New York have never seen 4 teenage girls trotting stick horses around. It was quite interesting!

We were on a red eye flight so not much happened on the flight. But before My 3 friends and I colored. I had brought a disney princesses coloring book and crayons. Elle had a picture of grumpy and asked what color his shirt was, none of us knew so a light bulb went off in her head and she pulled up her pants... She had grumpy socks on! It was very entertaining!

While I've been here I have just hung out with my uncle who lives In manhattan, whom we are staying with. Also we have just walked around, and shopped a bit. Its been a lot of fun! Gotta love me some New York! I'll keep posting daily if I get a chance!

Boot Camp.

2011-06-26T12:26:00.000-06:00

{first day of boot camp. Fairy God Mother and Flora - pink fairy from sleeping beauty}

Boot camp is over.. Thank goodness. Pretty sure it was the hardest boot camp in history. On monday We were told that we had to respace one of our girls for nationals due to doctor issues... So our boot camp week went from about 7-4 to 7-10 for some. It was crazy and extremely tiring. After the company showcase on friday it was all worth it though. To be on stage for those 2 minutes was enough. All our dances went well, i was quite pleased. So now Im going to get packing. Leaving for New York baby!!! I will have my laptop with me so i will most likely be able to blog! yahooo!

Vote

2011-06-23T22:16:00.000-06:00

Well hi, I have this friend. Her name being Zoey. She has an amazing opportunity to be the cover girl for dance spirit magazine next year! that is.. if you vote. so, with that said PLEASSSEEE vote. go to cms.dancespirit.com click on Zoey, Scroll down to 'vote for me', and do so please! leave a comment if you do so I know who to thank for her WIN!(;

You know New York/Nationals is coming up when:

2011-06-20T19:50:00.001-06:00

You dont remeber if you showered with in the past three days(i know, i barfed too)
Out of the shower your hair goes straight back, as if its going to go into a ponytail.
Your pits and legs have more hair than almost any of your14 year old friends of the male kind.
You have a pile of laundry, but cant seem to take it down and start a load.
Your 'bed making' ocd hasnt been there for a week
You realize your only meal for the past week has been yogurt, breakfast, lunch, dinner.
Tears stream down your face when you realize you havent slept in days.
The 5 minute drive home from the studio you fell asleep.

Its the last week before I actually leave. We are respacing Forest out. Its boot camp. Showcase friday. Goodness I cant wait for our week break when we come home. Because New York, just. might. kill. me.(as you can tell from the above picure)

Sorry I have nothing more to blog about than keep repeating myself about nationals. but its a must at this point.

Also, I know i have readers. I check my blog views statistics. I know i have readers from out of country. So weather I know you or not, comment. Show some love to an almost physco, worn out dancer(:

Ohh gala.

2011-06-18T09:52:00.000-06:00

At nationals in New York, there is a really fancy closing ceremony gala. Yesterday I went and bought my dress for the gala. Although I didnt buy just one. I couldnt choose between two of them... So you fellow readers, please comment and choose(:

The two dresses,
White dress: has Lace deatail around the boob with a 3 v sinch. Then a rib band and a silk skirt, and a mesh over skirt.
Black Dress: 3 v sinch on the boobs, with a rib band that ties to a bow in back. Pleats coming down from that.

Dont mind the pink bra straps.

Bra straps yet again.

So which one do you like more??(:

exhausted

2011-06-16T16:45:00.001-06:00

Dont mind the fact i havent blogged lately. I have been booked with "packets and pointe shoes." Ive been doing packets all afternoon and night, and ive been dancing 8-4 everyday.
Im exhausted mentally and physically.
Im eating less than my body need, but I feel no hunger, and find no time for food.
My hair hasn't left a bun on the top of my head in a week
I have split two callouses, and have a bleeding knee, with aching arches, tendons, and muscles.
I have cried for no reason about 3 times this week.
Im sleep deprived. exhausted.
Im tired. Im training for nationals. Im about pushed to the edge. I need a break. I will probably be back tomorrow or saturday. Until then, save up to watch my studio's three highest teams(which i am apart of one of them) in concert on the 24th. Timpanogos High. 7 at night. Be there. or be a bucket of lame.

Pass

2011-06-13T17:29:00.001-06:00

my dear readers. I sadly have to say im skiping todays topic. simply because i have thought about todays topic "write a letter to someone who has hurt you reciently". well, i cant think of anyone. therefore im going to pass for today.
the end.

the list:

~~day one. introduce, recent picture of yourself, 15 interesting facts~~
~~day two. the meaning behind your blog name.~~
~~day three. your parents~~
~~day four. a song to match your current mood.~~
~~day five. a description of your best friend(s).~~
~~day six. songs you listen to when your happy, sad, hyped, and mad.~~
~~day seven. a hobby you have.~~
~~day eight. something your afraid of.~~
~~day nine. something you crave frequently.~~
~~day ten. your dream date.~~
~~day eleven. something your looking forward to.~~
~~day twelve. something you miss.~~
~~day thirteen. nicknames and meanings.~~
~~day fourteen. whats in your purse.~~
~~day fifteen. a letter to someone who has hurt you recently.~~
day sixteen. something you've learned.
day seventeen. a letter to someone who has helped you recently.day eighteen. favorite movie(s) and why.
day nineteen. something that stresses you out
day twenty. a picture of yourself this day and five good things that have happened since you started the challenge

The Randoms in my purse

2011-06-12T10:12:00.002-06:00

I dont always carry a purse with me. Ive been trying to lately, just because it much easier it seems. Well, most people have things like their wallet, and gum in their purse. My purse at this moment(the purse I used last night) has in it some odd things...

Athletics Tape
Nivea Chapstick
Floss
Waterbottle
Bobby pins
Tide to go pen
Hair elastics
Safety pins
Paper and Pen
Ibuprofan
Camera
Wallet
Needle and black thread
1 Earingback.

This is the usual of whats in my purse. The floss, tide to go, and needle and thread are musts. Am i the only one who obsesses of flossing their teeth?

the list:
~~day one. introduce, recent picture of yourself, 15 interesting facts~~
~~day two. the meaning behind your blog name.~~
~~day three. your parents~~
~~day four. a song to match your current mood.~~
~~day five. a description of your best friend(s).~~
~~day six. songs you listen to when your happy, sad, hyped, and mad.~~
~~day seven. a hobby you have.~~
~~day eight. something your afraid of.~~
~~day nine. something you crave frequently.~~
~~day ten. your dream date.~~
~~day eleven. something your looking forward to.~~
~~day twelve. something you miss.~~
~~day thirteen. nicknames and meanings.~~
~~day fourteen. whats in your purse.~~
day fifteen. a letter to someone who has hurt you recently.
day sixteen. something you've learned.
day seventeen. a letter to someone who has helped you recently.day eighteen. favorite movie(s) and why.
day nineteen. something that stresses you out
day twenty. a picture of yourself this day and five good things that have happened since you started the challenge

Name me.

2011-06-11T09:12:00.002-06:00

Well, i have already kind-of posted about nicknames here. So everyone knows the nickname and meaning of Mother. I also have,

Kamika
Kamster/Hamster
Iguana Eyes
and Hoe.

-Kamika came from my cousin Cody. He thinks he is black and everyone desirves a black name. so he decided my 'black name' is Kamika. Simple as that.
-Kamster, Hamster. Who knows. My dad has always called me kamster hamster since i was a babyy. it stuck.
-Iguana Eyes. I have contemplated telling the story behind this for quite sometime... I am choosing not to, because it is personal and quite embarrassing. maybe another time...
-Hoe. this one comes from the dear friends Josh and Zach. Im not sure how it came about, but they use it as my name because im apariently good at taking crap and dont care if people are rude to me or call me "hoe." so my name to them will forever be hoe.

the list:
~~day one. introduce, recent picture of yourself, 15 interesting facts~~
~~day two. the meaning behind your blog name.~~
~~day three. your parents~~
~~day four. a song to match your current mood.~~
~~day five. a description of your best friend(s).~~
~~day six. songs you listen to when your happy, sad, hyped, and mad.~~
~~day seven. a hobby you have.~~
~~day eight. something your afraid of.~~
~~day nine. something you crave frequently.~~
~~day ten. your dream date.~~
~~day eleven. something your looking forward to.~~
~~day twelve. something you miss.~~
~~day thirteen. nicknames and meanings.~~
day fourteen. whats in your purse.
day fifteen. a letter to someone who has hurt you recently.
day sixteen. something you've learned.
day seventeen. a letter to someone who has helped you recently.
day eighteen. favorite movie(s) and why.
day nineteen. something that stresses you out
day twenty. a picture of yourself this day and five good things that have happened since you started the challenge

Maddie

2011-06-10T09:16:00.001-06:00

something i miss.

Maddie Mecum.
Happy Birthday.
I Love you.

the list:

~~day one. introduce, recent picture of yourself, 15 interesting facts~~
~~day two. the meaning behind your blog name.~~
~~day three. your parents~~
~~day four. a song to match your current mood.~~
~~day five. a description of your best friend(s).~~
~~day six. songs you listen to when your happy, sad, hyped, and mad.~~
~~day seven. a hobby you have.~~
~~day eight. something your afraid of.~~
~~day nine. something you crave frequently.~~
~~day ten. your dream date.~~
~~day eleven. something your looking forward to.~~
~~day twelve. something you miss.~~
day thirteen. nicknames and meanings.
day fourteen. whats in your purse.
day fifteen. a letter to someone who has hurt you recently.
day sixteen. something you've learned.
day seventeen. a letter to someone who has helped you recently.
day eighteen. favorite movie(s) and why.
day nineteen. something that stresses you out
day twenty. a picture of yourself this day and five good things that have happened since you started the challenge

Im looking forward to.

2011-06-09T21:45:00.000-06:00

NYCDA nationals and Company showcase. 'Nuff said. ( remember showcase is the 24th at timpanogos(: )

the list:
~~day one. introduce, recent picture of yourself, 15 interesting facts~~
~~day two. the meaning behind your blog name.~~
~~day three. your parents~~
~~day four. a song to match your current mood.~~
~~day five. a description of your best friend(s).~~
~~day six. songs you listen to when your happy, sad, hyped, and mad.~~
~~day seven. a hobby you have.~~
~~day eight. something your afraid of.~~
~~day nine. something you crave frequently.~~
~~day ten. your dream date.~~
~~day eleven. something your looking forward to.~~
day twelve. something you miss.
day thirteen. nicknames and meanings.
day fourteen. whats in your purse.
day fifteen. a letter to someone who has hurt you recently.
day sixteen. something you've learned.
day seventeen. a letter to someone who has helped you recently.
day eighteen. favorite movie(s) and why.
day nineteen. something that stresses you out
day twenty. a picture of yourself this day and five good things that have happened since you started the challenge

dream date.

2011-06-08T22:01:00.000-06:00

Lets be real, we all want a date like one the movie elf. Where the wander to no where, being adventurous and spontaneous. That would be my dream date. Anything spontaneous, with no or little cost. Something that doesnt have to be 'romantic' but ends up romantic anyway. Where you could have your hair on top of your head and sweat pants on if you desire. a date that isnt dinner and a movie. Where your acting like children again and couldnt be happier.(:

speaking of dates. mark your calendars. Studio Company Showcase is the 24th at Timpanogos. Be thuurr.

the list:

~~day one. introduce, recent picture of yourself, 15 interesting facts~~
~~day two. the meaning behind your blog name.~~
~~day three. your parents~~
~~day four. a song to match your current mood.~~
~~day five. a description of your best friend(s).~~
~~day six. songs you listen to when your happy, sad, hyped, and mad.~~
~~day seven. a hobby you have.~~
~~day eight. something your afraid of.~~
~~day nine. something you crave frequently.~~
~~day ten. your dream date.~~
day eleven. something your looking forward to.
day twelve. something you miss.
day thirteen. nicknames and meanings.
day fourteen. whats in your purse.
day fifteen. a letter to someone who has hurt you recently.
day sixteen. something you've learned.
day seventeen. a letter to someone who has helped you recently.
day eighteen. favorite movie(s) and why.
day nineteen. something that stresses you out
day twenty. a picture of yourself this day and five good things that have happened since you started the challenge

My boring craving.

2011-06-07T12:43:00.000-06:00

I feel as if these past few have been kinda boring. and this one will as well. but oh well.
As most women crave chocolate, diet coke, ect. I dont.
I used to be addicted to diet coke. Then red bull. Then diet coke again.
well i assume its to my insane amount of sweat produced. I crave one thing...
Water.
that is really the only thing i constantly crave. and let me tell you. Its constant.

the list:
~~day one. introduce, recent picture of yourself, 15 interesting facts~~
~~day two. the meaning behind your blog name.~~
~~day three. your parents~~
~~day four. a song to match your current mood.~~
~~day five. a description of your best friend(s).~~
~~day six. songs you listen to when your happy, sad, hyped, and mad.~~
~~day seven. a hobby you have.~~
~~day eight. something your afraid of.~~
~~day nine. something you crave frequently.~~
day ten. your dream date.
day eleven. something your looking forward to.
day twelve. something you miss.
day thirteen. nicknames and meanings.
day fourteen. whats in your purse.
day fifteen. a letter to someone who has hurt you recently.
day sixteen. something you've learned.
day seventeen. a letter to someone who has helped you recently.
day eighteen. favorite movie(s) and why.
day nineteen. something that stresses you out
day twenty. a picture of yourself this day and five good things that have happened since you started the challenge

The fear.

2011-06-06T09:37:00.000-06:00

I fear a few things. such as ferris wheel hights, being chased by midgets, and getting a bee sting(considering my only one was by a already half dead bee...) you know. that kind of stuff. but one of my very most fears is...

getting old.
im scared to get old. i want to stay young forever. main reason why i live at school playgounds.

the list:

~~day one. introduce, recent picture of yourself, 15 interesting facts~~
~~day two. the meaning behind your blog name.~~
~~day three. your parents~~
~~day four. a song to match your current mood.~~
~~day five. a description of your best friend(s).~~
~~day six. songs you listen to when your happy, sad, hyped, and mad.~~
day seven. a hobby you have.
day eight. something your afraid of.
day nine. something you crave frequently.
day ten. your dream date.
day eleven. something your looking forward to.
day twelve. something you miss.
day thirteen. nicknames and meanings.
day fourteen. whats in your purse.
day fifteen. a letter to someone who has hurt you recently.
day sixteen. something you've learned.
day seventeen. a letter to someone who has helped you recently.
day eighteen. favorite movie(s) and why.
day nineteen. something that stresses you out
day twenty. a picture of yourself this day and five good things that have happened since you started the challenge

We can dance if we want to.

2011-06-05T10:50:00.001-06:00

Okay, lets be real here. If you have read my blog at all, you know my hobby. My blog was onced named "Got-Dance?" instead of Simply-Kami. Obviously my hobby is dance. I train for hours a day, almost everyday. I dance down the aisles of grocery stores. I will randomly start turning(pirouette), kicking(battement), or jumping(soute) in the middle of a story. I cant stand still, I live to move. I live to dance.But you all know that. So why keep explaining something that is clear to you all?

Instead my other hobbys are:

Pretending I can rap.
Cleaning/organizing things.
Laundry (lately even dishes)
Doing sit-ups. actually working out in general.
Lately I've enjoyed sewing.
Laying out and getting a nice tan(:

Hellloooo summer(:

the list:

~~day one. introduce, recent picture of yourself, 15 interesting facts~~

~~day two. the meaning behind your blog name.~~

~~day three. your parents~~

~~day four. a song to match your current mood.~~

~~day five. a description of your best friend(s).~~

~~day six. songs you listen to when your happy, sad, hyped, and mad.~~

~~day seven. a hobby you have.~~

day eight. something your afraid of.

day nine. something you crave frequently.

day ten. your dream date.

day eleven. something your looking forward to.
day twelve. something you miss.
day thirteen. nicknames and meanings.
day fourteen. whats in your purse.
day fifteen. a letter to someone who has hurt you recently.
day sixteen. something you've learned.
day seventeen. a letter to someone who has helped you recently.
day eighteen. favorite movie(s) and why.
day nineteen. something that stresses you out
day twenty. a picture of yourself this day and five good things that have happened since you started the challenge

The songs for the moods.

2011-06-04T09:58:00.000-06:00

When im happy I will listen to ANYTHING country. this is one the favorites.
When im sad its usually a slower song. such as this, this, or this.
When im hyped its usually either something Britney, or sometimes some Tupac or Eminem.
When im mad, depending on what made me mad, changes what I listen to. but it usually is the same songs as either hyped or sad. or just anything mean.

what do you all listen to? anything similar? anything i should try?

the list:

~~day one. introduce, recent picture of yourself, 15 interesting facts~~
~~day two. the meaning behind your blog name.~~
~~day three. your parents~~
~~day four. a song to match your current mood.~~
~~day five. a description of your best friend(s).~~
~~day six. songs you listen to when your happy, sad, hyped, and mad.~~
day seven. a hobby you have.
day eight. something your afraid of.
day nine. something you crave frequently.
day ten. your dream date.
day eleven. something your looking forward to.
day twelve. something you miss.
day thirteen. nicknames and meanings.
day fourteen. whats in your purse.
day fifteen. a letter to someone who has hurt you recently.
day sixteen. something you've learned.
day seventeen. a letter to someone who has helped you recently.
day eighteen. favorite movie(s) and why.
day nineteen. something that stresses you out
day twenty. a picture of yourself this day and five good things that have happened since you started the challenge

The Besties.

2011-06-03T20:25:00.003-06:00

I have many people I could put here. but since starting this blog challenge I have really been thinking about who to post here. These people are some that have made an imprint in my life, different than others. These people inspire me daily.

First: Madison Palica.

This girl on the far left. I love her to death. This picture describes her perfectly. she is spontaneous, and crazy. She is the reason Im so crazy now days. She can beat me in ugly faces(which I am ashamed of!). I met her at the end of 5th grade. We instantly became great friends. Majority of the pictures in my room have her in it. She always listens to me vent. She knows my weaknesses and flaws and wont judge me. She is one of the most amazing, and gorgeous people I've met. I love her.

Next: Zachary Facemyer

This boy. Where do I even start. He knows my every secret. I fight, argue and butt-heads with him more than anyone. But I love him more than anyone as well. He is the nicest, and sweetest teenage boy I know. He doesn't have a care about what anyone thinks of him, he just wants to have fun. He is hilarious beyond belief, and your guaranteed to laugh when your with him. He sure knows how to turn that frown up-side-down ;). I love everything about him. I love him.

Next: Elle Fillmore

This girl is my other half. I met her at a dance audition where we hated each other. but we quickly changed our minds and became un-sepertable. Her family became mine, and vice versa. I've been on multiple vacations with her and we share everything. She is practically my sister. Just like Maddie, most of the picture in my room are of her. If I have news to tell, I know to tell Elle. She could tell you my life story better than anyone. I cry every time I think about not dancing with Elle next year. We have been through thick and thin. We have switched studio's together. She is my absolute best friend and will always be. I love her.

Last, but defiantly not least: Joshua Marsh

Josh has influenced my life in so many ways. He can always make me vent no matter what. He loves to hear about my problems and always knows how to help. He has made me so much more spiritual and closer to God. His witty humor gets me laughing for hours. I know I can trust him with any secret. He doesn't judge anyone. Some of my all time favorite memories are with him. I look forward to every winter because I know its a snowball fight leading to a cup of hot chocolate at his house. He looks after me like a little sister and makes sure I'm always protected. I love him.

There are many others I could have put in this slot as well. But these are the people I feel I'm closest to and the people who have made the most impacts on my life. I love them all so much.

the list:
~~day one. introduce, recent picture of yourself, 15 interesting facts~~
~~day two. the meaning behind your blog name.~~
~~day three. your parents~~
~~day four. a song to match your current mood.~~
~~day five. a description of your best friend(s).~~
day six. songs you listen to when your happy, sad, hyped, and mad.
day seven. a hobby you have.
day eight. something your afraid of.
day nine. something you crave frequently.
day ten. your dream date.
day eleven. something your looking forward to.
day twelve. something you miss.
day thirteen. nicknames and meanings.
day fourteen. whats in your purse.
day fifteen. a letter to someone who has hurt you recently.
day sixteen. something you've learned.
day seventeen. a letter to someone who has helped you recently.
day eighteen. favorite movie(s) and why.
day nineteen. something that stresses you out
day twenty. a picture of yourself this day and five good things that have happened since you started the challenge

2011-06-02T13:07:00.000-06:00

A song to match my currrent mood? there are many. im kinda mixed emotions right now, with feeling i dont know why i feel.

these three kinda match one of the feelings... 1, 2, 3.
dont forget this one.
this song rarely leaves me.
but then i also have this song that is keeping me happy!
and these three that are keeping me laughing. 1, 2, 3.
but most of all. i think this song is ruling my life at this moment...

so, that probably made you confused. dont worry. i am too. just said goodbye to half of my friends for the summer and the next school year.... weird day. mixed feelings.

the list:

~~day one. introduce, recent picture of yourself, 15 interesting facts~~

~~day two. the meaning behind your blog name.~~

~~day three. your parents~~

~~day four. a song to match your current mood.~~

day five. a description of your best friend(s).

day six. songs you listen to when your happy, sad, hyped, and mad.

day seven. a hobby you have.

day eight. something your afraid of.

day nine. something you crave frequently.

day ten. your dream date.

day eleven. something your looking forward to.

day twelve. something you miss.

day thirteen. nicknames and meanings.

day fourteen. whats in your purse.

day fifteen. a letter to someone who has hurt you recently.

day sixteen. something you've learned.

day seventeen. a letter to someone who has helped you recently.

day eighteen. favorite movie(s) and why.

day nineteen. something that stresses you out

day twenty. a picture of yourself this day and five good things that have happened since you started the challenge

Day Three

2011-06-01T18:37:00.001-06:00

The parents...

I'll simply say.. They are wonderful.

And I love them.

the list:

~~day one. introduce, recent picture of yourself, 15 interesting facts~~
~~day two. the meaning behind your blog name.~~
day three. your parents
day four. a song to match your current mood.
day five. a description of your best friend(s).
day six. songs you listen to when your happy, sad, hyped, and mad.
day seven. a hobby you have.
day eight. something your afraid of.
day nine. something you crave frequently.
day ten. your dream date.
day eleven. something your looking forward to.
day twelve. something you miss.
day thirteen. nicknames and meanings.
day fourteen. whats in your purse.
day fifteen. a letter to someone who has hurt you recently.
day sixteen. something you've learned.
day seventeen. a letter to someone who has helped you recently.
day eighteen. favorite movie(s) and why.
day nineteen. something that stresses you out
day twenty. a picture of yourself this day and five good things that have happened since you started the challenge

Entertainment day two.

2011-05-31T13:17:00.000-06:00

Day two goes as follows: The meaning behind my blog name.

Simply Kami

Im not sure how into depth I have to go with this... but here we go...
Often times I find myself thinking (in a possitive manner) "This would ONLY happen to me!" some of the craziest things (say ripping your jeans from seam to seam in the middle of school) happen often to me. I have quite a spontaneous and unpridictable life. But I enjoy it much. Well, my friends started to notice the spontaneous-ness of my life and started saying things like "its just so simply you! obviously!" well. that reverted to simply kami. its simply my life.(:

the list:

~~day one. introduce, recent picture of yourself, 15 interesting facts~~

day two. the meaning behind your blog name.

day three. your parents

day four. a song to match your current mood.

day five. a description of your best friend(s).

day six. songs you listen to when your happy, sad, hyped, and mad.

day seven. a hobby you have.

day eight. something your afraid of.

day nine. something you crave frequently.

day ten. your dream date.

day eleven. something your looking forward to.

day twelve. something you miss.

day thirteen. nicknames and meanings.

day fourteen. whats in your purse.

day fifteen. a letter to someone who has hurt you recently.

day sixteen. something you've learned.

day seventeen. a letter to someone who has helped you recently.

day eighteen. favorite movie(s) and why.

day nineteen. something that stresses you out

day twenty. a picture of yourself this day and five good things that have happened since you started the challenge

So you'll be entertained.

2011-05-30T19:24:00.000-06:00

Since I often times cant figure out what to blog about. why not try one of these "many day blog list nonsense". just so you'll be entertained. hopefully.

So, lets start with day one.

--- Picture of self and 15 interesting facts..

Key word: Interesting.

1. I truly believe one of my talents is burping. I'm quite grand.

2. My toes are musical. the crack constantly.

3. I dont mind being hairy, legs, pits. whatever. I dont mind hair.

4. I have scoliosis, and am often told "stand up straight" or asked "why are you standing crooked?"

5. I feel naked without earings. One of the reason I got the top of my ear pierced.

6. I over-analyze EVERYTHING. my problem or not. (thanks dad).

7. Socks are my obsession. I have TONS! and am constantly wanting more.

8. I have an outrageous sweating problem. To the point I have to go to a doctor for it.

9. Sports bra and any form of sweats are what I'm most comfortable in. that's all I wear around my house.

10. I cannot sleep if my bed sheets are wrinkled.

11. Every Monday I pluck my eyebrows. and Im OCD about it.

12. Ugly faces are my specialty. dont believe it? try to beat me in an ugly face contest.

13. I never get embarrassed. I will do just about anything infront of anyone.

14. Horoscopes run my life. I swear they are made just for me. I read my horoscope first thing when I wake.

15. I HATE being touched, or too close to people. I hate cuddling. I need my space.

the list:

day one. introduce, recent picture of yourself, 15 interesting facts

day two. the meaning behind your blog name.

day three. your parents

day four. a song to match your current mood.

day five. a description of your best friend(s).
day six. songs you listen to when your happy, sad, hyped, and mad.

day seven. a hobby you have.

day eight. something your afraid of.
day nine. something you crave frequently.
day ten. your dream date.

day eleven. something your looking forward to.
day twelve. something you miss.

day thirteen. nicknames and meanings.

day fourteen. whats in your purse.

day fifteen. a letter to someone who has hurt you recently.

day sixteen. something you've learned.

day seventeen. a letter to someone who has helped you recently.

day eighteen. favorite movie(s) and why.

day nineteen. something that stresses you out

day twenty. a picture of yourself this day and five good things that have happened since you started the challenge.

vision boards

2011-05-25T19:07:00.000-06:00

How about a happy post to follow the mean "douche bag" post? i think so.
I recently heard about this thing called a "vision board"" whats that you ask? allow me to explain.
a board, paper, framed art work - what ever, of:
something that motivates you.
something that makes your hard work all for it.
something that your working FOR.
something you love.
something that makes you happy.

place this vision board somewhere that you are guaranteed to see it daily, preferably when you awaken.

It will make your days brighter, and happier. make you more motivated, and inspired.

so, lets all make vision boards? amen.
here is my rough draft while the real one is still under work...

(my motivation? friends. family. marilyn monroe quotes. and a saying reminding me its alright to be imperfect.) sorry the quality isnt great. and i also apologize for the lack of motivation to do my hair. ;)

toast for the douche bags.

2011-05-24T14:44:00.000-06:00

Some people are so mean, they make me want to dedicate this song to them. although i dont want to be as rude and stoop to their level. but you all know how it feels.

so lets have a toast for the douche bags.

and dont mind that these last two posts have been music.

there are things in this world too good not to share.

2011-05-16T19:16:00.000-06:00

and William Fitzsimmons is one of them...
just close your eyes and indulge.

I have officially found perfection.

hair.

2011-05-14T09:04:00.001-06:00

okay reader. i actually need you to comment on this post...
now that my hair is getting long, and I've been wanting it long for a while now, i cant stand it. all i ever want to do is pull it up. its overwhelming and all over the place.. but i hate cutting my hair because then all i want is it long again.

so do i stick through it? or chop it?

Be seen.

2011-05-14T09:02:00.000-06:00

lately I have been relating posts I do, with previous posts of friends.
might as well keep doing it.

this post relates to Indy's.

Pep talk in ballet went a little like this:
"why do you stand in the back? why are you hiding? all of you should be fighting for the front. do you want to know why you should? because you DESERVE to be seen. you are good enough to be seen, you should be seen. Instead of finding all your flaws, you need to think "im beautiful, everybody loves me." but dont just think that. believe it. live it. because each of you are beautiful. and if you walk with your head up and think everybody loves me, everybody will, cause they wont find flaw."

So, remember. your beautiful. everybody loves you.

grow up boys.

2011-05-07T13:59:00.001-06:00

I know nobody is perfect. Im well aware. Im not asking you to be. But honestly? stop being a baby and grow up.

I live in a house of My parents, Two older brothers and I. One brother old enough to be living out of the house, but he isnt. Thats okay, I like family...

What i dont like is when its a special occasion, say mothers day, and you have this awesome idea to clean the house for your mom for her day... So you ask your bothers to help (which let me add, at least once a month i try to deep clean for my parents, so they dont have to.. and my brothers get mad at me for asking them to pick up their stuff every time....) when you ask them to grab their homework and boxing gloves from the kitchen right after you MADE them food, and they get mad? honestly. heck, dont even do it for me. grab your stupid stuff and put it in your room for your mother. Stop being fifthy pigs and expect mom, dad, and i to clean up after you and practically wipe your butts.

come on... grow up boys. (and hallelujah kimber is the only one of the family who reads my blog, making it so i can vent this.)

At some point, you gotta get serious.

2011-05-04T21:09:00.000-06:00

Going along with this post, I agree. We don't always win, and not everything needs to be a competition. But at some point, you gotta get serious.

One of my pet peeves is when people are too competitive.
An equal or possibly even larger pet peeve is when people always mess around.

My studio is wonderful. Full of hard working, dedicated dancers. I love it. Except, there are a few girls (left to be un-named) who never stop messing around. I constantly am shushing and asking them to be quite. and as soon as i turn around their conversation presumes. Well, hi, I'm going to the studio every day for countless hours to get better and hopefully make a career out of it. So please stop taking from my opportunity to get better.

There is a fine line between working hard and being too competitive.
There is a fine line between taking from others expeirience and being lazy.
find them.

and sorry for neglecting the blog. I havent had much to post lately.

Ohh and on a high dance note, I won "Queen" (first place) at my competition Gotta Move on friday! And Over all high score for advanced solo's with a score of 293.5 out of 300! yahoo!

Dear Lea,

2011-04-27T22:06:00.001-06:00

Hopefully this doesn't embarrass you at all! but it was so nice i had to share!

Lea commented,
"Dear kami.
I see you every once and awhile.
and i think to myself, wow what an amazingly beautiful girl on the inside and out.

You are so strong. and girls like you stick out to me.
i hope someday we can be friends and get to know eachother? because i would love to know your secrets on being so powerful [:

love lea."

This made me tear up. you are so nice! If you wanna know my secret (if what you said is true ;] ) it is, I went through an 'anti-social' stage where I literally took hot baths and talked to my mom every weekend for about 3 months because i was fed up with people, it made me realize whats important in my life, and who is important in my life. it made made me grateful for what I have. I used to thrive off of creating and being in drama. I used to know the dish on everyone, its a whole different world now. The only person I gossip to is my mother (at least i try). When im with a group of friends that are saying mean things i politely ask them to stop, because i know people talk behind my back, and how could i expect them not to when i am saying the same of them? Now im not in any way trying to toot my horn or say im perfect, ive just noticed -- that above is what has made me happy lately rather than the latest gossip.

Thanks again for that post. your far too kind! and i agree, lets do become friends and get to know eachother! (:

Its natural to cry.

2011-04-23T23:08:00.000-06:00

Today was one of those days,
-I had a MAJOR date with some ice cream and tears.

why?
no idea.
maybe mother nature is preparing to step in?
maybe im just insane?
maybe it was just one of those days. and long overdue.

my night went like this.

started crying, like tears streaming down my face due to stress. AT WALMART. infront of everyone.
took a bubble bath, and sobbed, for NO reason. just because i could.
watched Blind Side and cried during that, but felt a little better with the happy ending.
grabbed some ice cream and cried while i ate it.
then topped off the night with watching Remember Me. which left me completely devastated.

Its natural to cry.
and it was just one of those days.

A little good goes a long way.

2011-04-22T23:40:00.000-06:00

A teenagers habit. Girls obsession. Many people live for this.. Its cruel and terrible. But its true..

Gossip.

today, playing with friends talking about random things which turned into gossip. No one wants to be talked about like that, but everyone wants to talk like that. We can dish it, but we aren't as good at taking it. Even if we can take it, that doesn't give us the right to gossip. I politely asked my friends if we would stop talking about people like that, they weren't necessarily happy, but they understood and stopped. I kind of felt out of place after that.. When i went home one of the girls texted me "Hey I just wanted to tell you that I admire you for sticking up for people tonight:) I love you!"

a little good goes a long way.

pay it forward.

Who needs a vacation?

2011-04-18T21:55:00.001-06:00

Who needs a vacation during spring break when you've got these girls?

I definatly dont! Instead my spring break looks like this.

Tiffany and I decided to repaint my room. It was a very fun adventure! and great activity for spring break! I didnt do too much during the break, it was very chill and much needed relaxing, but it was a ton of fun, and one of my favorite spring breaks to date. Gotta love life(:

Please dont leave us home alone.

2011-04-12T10:55:00.001-06:00

As many might be scared to be home alone. Id be scared to leave us home alone....

Dont dance too fast, time is short the music wont last.

2011-04-10T12:12:00.001-06:00

Everyone is talking about their lack of posting lately. Well I as well have had a lack of posting, simply because of the lack of sleep I've been getting as well. The other night I was laying down, wide awake at 2 a.m. when it was pouring rain. I sat there listing to the gorgeous sound of rain as I repeated the poem "Slow Dance" in my mind,

Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?
You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Do you run through each day
On the fly?
When you ask "How are you?"
Do you hear the reply?
When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?
You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Ever told your child,
We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say "Hi"?
You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift....
Thrown away.
Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over.

Well, I once again repeated this poem in my mind yesterday at my studio's year end concert. The concert was phenomenal. Tech rehearsal the night before was rough, we went home feeling terrible and our teachers mad at us. But the concert was much different. As I was standing on the side of the stage in the opening number, when the tree lights shot on from the opposite side of the stage, partially blinding me I started tearing up. I know it sounds ridiculous and very corney, but all my worries melted away, and I knew what I was supposed to do. What I was put on this earth for. I was in heaven for those 3 minutes on stage! All of our dances went this well. It was a great night! In one of our dances Kayman's costume broke. The zipper going all the way up the front completely broke to the point of no return! we ended up having to sew and safety pin her into her costume! What an adventure! It was a truly phenomenal night, and I felt so blessed to be able to dance, and dance with those girls I do dance with!

Royalty, Opening number

The broken Costume

Teen's picture with our tap teacher while Kayman was talking to the directors

Bain our hero

The hero again

Finished result

"okay teens lets get a picture with Kayman now!"

"Two for good luck"

Than Kayman shows up and told us she was in the bathroom, so we have to take another!

Hello Perfection.

2011-04-03T20:24:00.003-06:00

Prized.

2011-04-01T15:57:00.001-06:00

A lot of people are doing the 30 day photo challenge on the good ol' fb. Today as I was tanning the song I Hope You Dance came on. It made me think of day number 7, your most prized possession.

I have two... The ablitly I have to dance, and my studio- so thankful of both of those. go figure.

But the other one, the plaque in my room that say's I Hope You Dance. My sister made it for me and gifted it to me a little while ago. I absolutely adore it. I Hope You Dance is with out question one of my favorite songs. That plaque is so special to me, in ways im not quite sure of. I love it! Thanks Kimber!(:

What do you treasure?

Its Tuesday.

2011-03-29T21:30:00.001-06:00

Wheeew. its been a rough start of the week. Getting stuff ready to register for the grand High School. And trying to figure out WHICH high school... It's tuesday. Im going to be random.

Britney Spears' new album Femme Fatale came out today! YAHHOOO! I bought it! LOVE IT! Im a real Brit fan here... Please only share nice comments on her!(:

Lately I've been kinda bummed at the studio. I catch myself thinking things like "You'll never be the best, your in the room with some of utah, heck the countries best teen dancers." Or "Their so gorgeous its unreal. And their dancing is phenomenal. I only wish" WELL HELLO! (this doesnt just pertain to dance) Your in a room WITH them! you have to be JUST as good to be there WITH them!!!

Sometimes when things are so perfect. Their boring. their too perfect, you get bored. Why try so hard at something and be so pretty and so absolutely perfect, its boring? Be adventurous, creative, unique, be different! Although I am not a Swift fan in the slightest, her quote is pure gorgeous genius. "Your lucky enough to be different. Why change to be the same?" Hallelujah.

There isn't much of a difference between fake confidence and real confidence. Either way, to those around you, your confident. So lets make our marks and shine -- be confident.

Why do we do the things we do? If its just cause we are told to, whats the point? We need to have a purpose behind everything we do. Going to school (trust me, Im not a fan) but look for the good, rather than dragging your butt all day. ya know, do everything to your best. and in the end, if you did your best, you succeeded.

so there you go. those things have been on my mind lately. Its tuesday. I can be random