Overwhelmed FML.

I'm sleep deprived. Exhausted beyond belief. I have 5+ tests this week. and a enormous load of homework to do. I have 2grades I need to get up. and not much time to do it... -- yet all my assignments are in, so how do I get my grade up? I need to do my packets for History, and other classes so I can freaking get ahead. I need to get my schedule changed for next term. I'm getting surgery in two month from tomorrow. I am scared beyond belief. This will either make or break it for me.(most likely make it.. but still..) My studio is doing a halftime on thursday. that we had to respace AGAIN, and we wont have time to set on Orem Highs floor. we went from 10 to 6, in just one section. even more girls are in it.. but thats just the "new kids" section... there is still "backstreet" and "n'sync". I dont know how to tell my mom I need new pointe shoes, considering, I JUST got new ones. my toe keeps splitting, and superglue is doing nothing. my callouses are rubbing off. I have insane shin-splints. it hurts to put any weight what so ever on my legs. dont even try to touch my shins, i will cringe. yeah. its bad. My room is clean, but so compleatly un-organized its driving me insane. My tendionitis in my achillis, arch of my foot, top of my foot, and knee are all back. and this weather is making them hurt like crazy. I have to understudy a dance tomorrow. because the girl who is in it is seriously injured. And last but what set me over the edge, thank you for taking advantage of me again. but as long as we are homies right? homie status.. yeah what ever..

its been rough.
maybe thats why i havent blogged in forever.
and maybe thats why i have had emotional break-downs so often lately.
but its not even that time of the month?
only 4 more days of school.
i can do it.


Hows that for a monday?